You know, two years ago when Koki left, I made the instant decision that these guys can't be trusted. It's sad but it's the truth. And so, many times, without even noticing, while the other four members tell us how much they love us and will never leave us, in the back of my mind, there was a voice shouting 'liar... liar... liar'. That's how much Koki's leaving or rather, firing affected me... since that day, I decided that as much as I love them, KAT-TUN can not be trusted... not Kame, not Nakamaru, not Tatsuya and not even the crying Junno. Even when all the members gave their messages - apologies taken - apologies understood - but I always felt like one day soon, another member will betray those feelings they tried so hard to convey. I don't know much about Jin, but for the five members I grew to love, I really don't think they are bad people. I really think they love us and I do believe that whatever promises they make to us, that they honestly think they'll be able to deliver... but mankind is mankind.
But of course, even with all the expectation and self-defense of distrust, you can never be prepared for a member leaving a haven you've grown to love.
Nothing could have prepared me for Junno's leaving.( And I could've said the same for Koki but I think Junno was... is... was... is... good for KAT-TUN... )
On a 'member ai' basis, I can see Nakamaru and Ueda being good together... Nakamaru and Kame being good with each other... and Kame and Ueda being good together, I can see all three of them being good together BUT, it's really Junno who perfectly blends and naturally smudges the lines between everyone.
JunDa... this OTP of mine might prove to be a whole different and difficult hurdle. Btw, I recommend playing the audio for this clip ^^ *Sooo cute*( I hope Junno is happy with the choice he has made... but for now, just for now, for the time being, I hope he's just as miserable and losing sleep the way we are now. My misery needs company! )
But, you know what's even crazier?
If I could do it all over again... If I could go 5 years back to that day I first stumbled upon them... then unblinkingly... curiously... without hesitation... very gladly... and simply naturally... I would choose KAT-TUN again.